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Soul Mountain (chinese)

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Soul Mountain (chinese)
Название: Soul Mountain (chinese)
Автор: Xingjian Gao
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"Soul Mountain is one of those singular literary creations that seem impossible to compare with anything but themselves… In the writing of Gao Xingjian literature is born anew from the struggle of the individual to survive the history of the masses."

– from the citation of the Nobel Prize committee of the Swedish Academy

When this year's Nobel Prize for Literature was awarded to Chinese expatriate novelist and playwright Gao Xingjian, few in the English-speaking West were familiar with his work. Gao's masterpiece, SOUL MOUNTAIN (PerfectBound, an e-book from HarperCollins; February 20, 2001; $19.95), is a dazzling kaleidoscope of fiction, philosophy, history and fable. Elegantly translated by Australian sinologist Mabel Lee, this richly textured autobiographical novel recounts a dual journey-a literal journey into the heart of China and a spiritual journey of the self.

When Gao was 43, he was incorrectly diagnosed with lung cancer. Resigned to death by the same means that had claimed his father just a few years before, Gao spent six weeks indulging his appetites and reading philosophy. The spot on Gao's lung mysteriously disappeared, but a new threat arose when rumors began to circulate that he was to be sent to a prison farm because of his controversial writings. No longer facing imminent death, the writer quickly left Beijing and disappeared into the remote forest regions of Sichuan, then spent five months wandering along the Yangtze River from its source down to the coast. Gao's 15,000 kilometer sojourn forms the geographic parameters of the fictional journey in SOUL MOUNTAIN.

While on a train at the start of his trip, the writer protagonist meets another traveler who says he is going to Lingshan, "soul mountain," which can be found by the remote source of the You River. The writer has never heard of such a place, and he resolves to go there, but his fellow traveler can give him none but the vaguest directions. Thus begins a metaphoric odyssey into the hinterlands of China and the outlying Qiang, Miao and Yi districts that dangle on the fringes of Han Chinese civilization.

The writer is in search of the traditions that are hidden in rural China, and as he travels he encounters a parade of unforgettable characters who embody both vestiges of the past-Daoist masters, Buddhist monks, ancient calligraphers-and the modern culture that has surfaced since the revolution: small town communist cadres, budding entrepreneurs, independent young girls grappling with parochial repression. The two worlds exist uneasily as one, with stories and customs from centuries past colliding with a world of televisions, automobiles, and technology. All is permeated by the dark legacy of the Cultural Revolution, the encroachment of ecological damage, and the harsh monetary realities of everyday life in contemporary China.

SOUL MOUNTAIN is a dazzling work of the imagination, where classic fables merge with tales of modern cruelty and ancient philosophy does battle with existentialism. But Gao goes deeper still as he explores notions of the devastation of the self at the hands of social expectations. He continually shifts his narrative voice as the "I" of the writer becomes the "you" of an imagined companion, then the "she" of a woman companion. Yet all reflects back on the protagonist, who craves these two seemingly contradictory ends-the solitude necessary for nurturing the self and the anxiety-provoking warmth of human society.

Gao began this novel in the mid-eighties, then carried the manuscript with him when he fled China in 1987. Now living in Paris, he completed the book there in 1989. His writings continue to be banned in his native country. As Gao's work at last gains the public's attention here in the West, SOUL MOUNTAIN provides a dazzling introduction to the achievement of one of contemporary literature's acknowledged masters.

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  她说她同他这样的时候,没一点快乐,她看到他流在她腿上的精液就吐了。以后她每次只要闻到那气味,就止不住要吐。她说她纯粹是他泄欲的工具,她只要沾上他那东西,她对她自己的肉体都感到恶心。

  她说这是她第一次放纵自己,第一次用自己的身体来爱一个男人。没有呕吐,她感激你,感激你给了她这种快感。她说她就要这样报复他,报复她那个男朋友,她要告诉他她也和别的男人睡觉了。一个比她大得多的男人,一个会享受她也给她享受的男人。

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  她还说她小的时候,她家有一条狗,总喜欢用潮湿的鼻于弄醒她,有时候还跳到她床上来。她特别喜欢搂着这狗。她妈妈说,她亲生的妈妈还在世的时候,说狗身上有跳蚤,不让狗进她睡觉的房里。她有一个时候,身上老长红的疹子,她妈妈就说是狗身上的跳蚤咬的。后来城里不让养狗,乘她不在家的时候,打狗队把狗套走打死了,她还哭了,没有吃晚饭。她觉得那时候她特别善良。她不明白为什么人世间这么恶?人对人之间为什么这样缺乏同情?她说她不知道为什么说这些?

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  你说你也是男人。

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  你问她不觉得你也肮脏?

  别这么说,她说。她不觉得,她喜欢你。你的一切她都觉得这样亲切,她说她现在才知道什么叫生活。可她说她有时候特别恐惧,觉得生活就像无底洞。

  她觉得谁也不真正爱她,没有人爱她,活在这世界上还有什么意义?她说她就惧怕这个。可是男人的爱都那么自私,总想占有,他们付出什么呢?

  他们也付出了,你说。

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  她说你教唆。

  你问她难道不喜欢?只要这一切都来得这么自然,她说。

   来了,就全身心接受,你唆使她。

  啊,她说她想唱。

  你问她想唱什么?

  唱我同你,她说。

  想唱什么就唱什么,你鼓动她放开声唱。

  她要你抚摸她。

  你说你要她放荡。

  她要你吻她的乳头…

  你吻着了她。

  她说她也爱你的身体,你身上的一切都不再可怕,你要她做什么她就做什么,哦,她说她想看见你进入她的身体。

  你说她成了个真正的女人。是的,她说,一个被男人占有了的女人,她说她不知道她胡说些什么,她说从来没有这样享受过,她说她在船上飘,不知要飘到哪里,身不由己。由它荡去,漆黑的海面上,她和你,不,只有她自己,她并不真的害怕,只觉得特别空虚,她想死,死也是一种诱惑,她想落到海里,让黑乎乎的海水把她淹没,她需要你,你的体温,你的压迫,也是一种安慰,她问你知道吗?她特别需要!

  需要男人?你诱惑她。

  是的,需要男人的爱,需要被占有。她说,是的、是的,她渴望被占有,她想放纵,把什么都忘记,啊,她感激你,第一次的时候她说她有些慌张,是的,她说她要,她知道她要,可她慌张极了,不知道怎么办才好,她想哭,想喊叫,想在荒野里让风暴把她卷走,把她剥得光光的,让树枝条抽打得皮开肉裂,痛苦而不能自拔,让野兽来把她撕碎!她说她看见了她,那个穿黑衣服的放荡的女人,双手摸着自己的乳房,那种笑容,走路的那种姿态,扭动着膀,一个淫荡的女人,她说,你不懂,这你不懂,你什么也不懂,你这个傻瓜!

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